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Froupie:
cheers ohrwurm, i'm abrew with optimism now.
(Mon May 24, 2004 - 12:24:03 pm)

Queenie:
I don't know, I think I might give up this movie stuff for a while. My life feels so out of control, and it seems to be the only thing that's expendable. It's become like an escape, but not in a healthy way. It's like a way to keep busy and not face stuff. I wish I could find some balance and be able to do everything but I'm a person of extremes, I can't just do something a little. I don't know.
(Mon May 24, 2004 - 12:24:20 pm)

Froupie:
give it up? and do what?
(Mon May 24, 2004 - 12:24:58 pm)

bela:
Yoga?
(Mon May 24, 2004 - 12:25:45 pm)

Queenie:
do stuff that actually makes some goddamn money that I can contribute to my household. I don't know what that would be, though. I have many skills but nothing anyone wants to pay me for.
(Mon May 24, 2004 - 12:27:09 pm)

Queenie:
the best I could do is minimum wage or a little higher. once I pay for child care I don't know if it would even be worth it. and there'd be no one here to clean the house or make dinner. it's all so depressing.
(Mon May 24, 2004 - 12:28:08 pm)

Queenie:
I want to move this summer, but we can't afford to live in Portland on Ken's income alone. Yesterday I went into Portland to go to that party and I stood outside on the sidewalk for a while with Aaron and Clyde and just looked around at all the people and the shops and restaurants and I just ached to live there again. I can't even express to you how bland and shitty Vancouver is.
(Mon May 24, 2004 - 12:29:32 pm)

Froupie:
you're on a downer
(Mon May 24, 2004 - 12:29:47 pm)

bela:
Yeah. I thought you had a job awhile ago.
(Mon May 24, 2004 - 12:30:16 pm)

Queenie:
I have clients, but not enough of them. I wish I could get some more. Doing web work from home is so ideal. But the work just isn't out there.
(Mon May 24, 2004 - 12:31:24 pm)

Froupie:
you gotta move back to portland, you can do it somehow
(Mon May 24, 2004 - 12:31:56 pm)

Queenie:
poor Ken, he's so stressed out.
(Mon May 24, 2004 - 12:32:42 pm)

Froupie:
theres bound to be more job opportunities in portland than vancouver eh
(Mon May 24, 2004 - 12:34:45 pm)

Queenie:
there really isn't. pathetic. it's like flint down there.
(Mon May 24, 2004 - 12:41:15 pm)

Froupie:
oh man. what do people live on there?
(Mon May 24, 2004 - 12:44:58 pm)

Froupie:
shrubs and berries? move to san francisco.
(Mon May 24, 2004 - 12:45:41 pm)

Queenie:
yeah cause that's affordable living.
(Mon May 24, 2004 - 12:47:59 pm)

Froupie:
i know. have you ever thought about shooting music videos? plenty of bands all over the north-west... must be money in that somewhere
(Mon May 24, 2004 - 12:48:16 pm)

Froupie:
you've got contacts..
(Mon May 24, 2004 - 12:48:59 pm)

Queenie:
yeah but musicians don't have money, as a general rule.
(Mon May 24, 2004 - 12:49:34 pm)

Queenie:
I'm a negative nelly.
(Mon May 24, 2004 - 12:49:40 pm)

Froupie:
but record companies do.. maybe do a freebie for a band yuou know.. a cheap one but make it interesting.. and use that to garner publicity
(Mon May 24, 2004 - 12:50:15 pm)

Froupie:
you need to get your creative juices flowing!
(Mon May 24, 2004 - 12:50:27 pm)

Queenie:
I don't own a camera. AARGH!
(Mon May 24, 2004 - 12:50:37 pm)

Froupie:
yknow, if you lived here you'd get a job just like that.. do you know how many clueless idiots work in media over here???
(Mon May 24, 2004 - 12:50:52 pm)

Froupie:
how much is a good camera? bout 3 grand right?.. theres gotta be a way
(Mon May 24, 2004 - 12:55:05 pm)

Queenie:
3 or 4, plus lots of extras.
(Mon May 24, 2004 - 12:55:42 pm)

Queenie:
like a fluid motion tripod...mmm......
(Mon May 24, 2004 - 12:55:52 pm)

Queenie:
12" portable monitor...
(Mon May 24, 2004 - 12:55:57 pm)

Froupie:
i should put you in touch with otis, hes doing all that now.. i'll send you the link to the company he does band videos for
(Mon May 24, 2004 - 12:56:44 pm)

Froupie:
he could give you advice
(Mon May 24, 2004 - 12:56:51 pm)

Queenie:
I just want a small life, small and manageable. The one thing I felt relief about when Ken and I seperated that day was the fact that I could finally control my money and bills for once in my life, without chuckles the spending freak blowing it all on drinking and crap. as hard as he works for it, he sure doesn't think twice about spending it on useless shit.
(Mon May 24, 2004 - 12:57:50 pm)

Queenie:
I don't think I'd want a job making band videos. Especially not for terrible local bands who think they're rock stars.
(Mon May 24, 2004 - 12:59:02 pm)