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Queenie:
but we all know he doesn't.
(Fri Jun 20, 2003 - 2:22:23 pm)

bela:
Hes off doing something, hes not here.
(Fri Jun 20, 2003 - 2:26:58 pm)

Queenie:
bela how's it going
(Fri Jun 20, 2003 - 2:28:01 pm)

bela:
Not so great.
(Fri Jun 20, 2003 - 2:32:38 pm)

Queenie:
I'm sorry.
(Fri Jun 20, 2003 - 2:38:54 pm)

bela:
Thanks but thats life.
(Fri Jun 20, 2003 - 2:40:35 pm)

Heruka:
I'm here now.
(Fri Jun 20, 2003 - 2:55:45 pm)

Heruka:
you kniow, I could have great things happening all the time.
(Fri Jun 20, 2003 - 2:56:12 pm)

Heruka:
actually, I wen to pick up some stuff for the boat, but the guy wasn't there. new companionway hatch, and some access hatch covers and the like.
(Fri Jun 20, 2003 - 2:57:07 pm)

Chewing Wax:
What a day I'm having. Hello.
(Fri Jun 20, 2003 - 3:11:40 pm)

Heruka:
not nearly as full and wonderful as mine is I bet. it's been an incredible ride.
(Fri Jun 20, 2003 - 3:15:33 pm)

Chewing Wax:
Not wonderful. Crazy. But it will be wonderful soon. I have a feeling.
(Fri Jun 20, 2003 - 3:16:11 pm)

Chewing Wax:
So what happened bela? You kick Tom out of the house or what?
(Fri Jun 20, 2003 - 3:16:53 pm)

bela:
No, I didn't kick him out of the house. Hes losing his mind I think and he knows it. He gets drunk and says really fucked up shit like I'm scared for my physical being. I don't know whats going to happen. I'm saving my money to get out of there. He has a lot of problems that I can't help him with.
(Fri Jun 20, 2003 - 3:21:27 pm)

bela:
I'm going to go on a little vacation soon though.
(Fri Jun 20, 2003 - 3:24:59 pm)

Chewing Wax:
That's sad
(Fri Jun 20, 2003 - 3:25:59 pm)

Chewing Wax:
Not the vacation. That's happy.
(Fri Jun 20, 2003 - 3:26:08 pm)

Heruka:
yikes.
(Fri Jun 20, 2003 - 3:26:34 pm)

Chewing Wax:
Could be late onset schizo.
(Fri Jun 20, 2003 - 3:27:46 pm)

bela:
The vacation will be fun. Yeah its sad all right seeing this person I used to know change into someone I totally don't know. Its really strange but I guess that happens to people sometimes. He says hes sorry all the time but to me its the same crap so I'm all yeah, sorry thats cool but it really doesn't matter that much to me any more, or Franco either.
(Fri Jun 20, 2003 - 3:28:25 pm)

Heruka:
sounds like it a bit. does he get real intense about these things when he's talking? also, does he get that look? you'll know it if he gets it.
(Fri Jun 20, 2003 - 3:28:51 pm)

bela:
Huh? What look? I can tell when hes drunk and going to be nasty. LIke he flips out on me and yells at me for like an hour and I just don't say anything I have to take it because if I say the wrong thing he just gets angrier and that is sort of scary but hes starting to say scary shit. Like I'm shocked but at the same time I don't care.
(Fri Jun 20, 2003 - 3:32:09 pm)

bela:
My mother used to flip out on me a lot too. I swear if this ends I am never getting involved with anyone again. Never I swear.
(Fri Jun 20, 2003 - 3:35:24 pm)

bela:
But this is stupid and depressing. They say this weather is making people looney. I don't know, it hasn't rained here yet I don't think.
(Fri Jun 20, 2003 - 3:36:36 pm)

Heruka:
it's a certain look. they don't look at you, but through you. I know you've heard that many times I'm sure, but when you see it, you'll know it.
(Fri Jun 20, 2003 - 3:40:04 pm)

bela:
You're funny. Are you serious?
(Fri Jun 20, 2003 - 3:44:30 pm)

Chewing Wax:
He's serious
(Fri Jun 20, 2003 - 3:46:01 pm)

Queenie:
I know that look.
(Fri Jun 20, 2003 - 3:46:34 pm)

Queenie:
The look of mania.
(Fri Jun 20, 2003 - 3:46:40 pm)

Heruka:
the thing aboit schizoids, or bi-polar as they're called now is they tend to not be inherently violent. sometimes they are, but not usually. also, schizophrenia is only temorary, it can last years, but ssooner or later the person does re-emerge and jopin the real world. some do anyway.

if he's getting mean and threatening, it could be anger issues. I have not tolerance for angry people, they take it out on others. and I ain't cool with that.
(Fri Jun 20, 2003 - 3:52:48 pm)

bela:
I don't know, its really sad I think of the looks my mother would give me when I was a kid and I still get chills. Thats bad right? I don't think of sad things though I shut them out.
(Fri Jun 20, 2003 - 3:53:28 pm)

Chewing Wax:
What's he drink?
(Fri Jun 20, 2003 - 4:02:41 pm)

Chewing Wax:
Sex and the City premiers on Sunday. And HBO has the big fight tomorrow night. What a world.
(Fri Jun 20, 2003 - 4:04:30 pm)