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(Sun Apr 27, 2003 - 5:14:09 am)

Hugh G. Erection:
'Ello!
(Sun Apr 27, 2003 - 5:14:47 am)

(Sun Apr 27, 2003 - 4:04:55 pm)

(Sun Apr 27, 2003 - 4:29:06 pm)

:
When I was a little boy of about 5 the neiborhood bully kicked out my front teeth. I hate Sunday nights because there the ultimate reality check as far as slacking off all weekend. SO much opposite as a friday. Oh well. Been on the same old isolation route. Sometimes it feels like heaven being this removed from other people. Sometimes it feels like hell.
Alt here writing from the lakehouse... peace and love
(Sun Apr 27, 2003 - 9:41:16 pm)

Detlef Sping:
But you still have your front teeth.
(Sun Apr 27, 2003 - 9:44:10 pm)

alt:
How did you know that?
(Sun Apr 27, 2003 - 10:41:58 pm)

Heruka:
p
(Sun Apr 27, 2003 - 11:11:23 pm)

Heruka:
Thu hungry wolf.
(Sun Apr 27, 2003 - 11:13:55 pm)

Heruka:
I am human and I need to be loved.
(Sun Apr 27, 2003 - 11:17:32 pm)

Myk Murphy:
just like everybody else does, heruka. heh.
(Sun Apr 27, 2003 - 11:25:38 pm)

heh
(Sun Apr 27, 2003 - 11:29:24 pm)

Heruka:
I think I'm getting close to snapping. Everyday I seem to sink in my own world of delusions. Which wouldn't be a big deal, but I'm beginning to act out this imaginary world unconciously.
(Mon Apr 28, 2003 - 2:01:46 am)

Heruka:
maybe I am bored.
(Mon Apr 28, 2003 - 2:02:22 am)

Heruka:
aren't people who are bored often drift off into their own little world?
(Mon Apr 28, 2003 - 2:05:39 am)

Heruka:
maybe I'm just playing with myself. I had a rehab counselor that onced used the term "psycological masturbation".

I also had a rehab counselor that told me, after a particularly tough session, that I would probably end up drinking myself to death, or get tired of that lifestyle and just kill myself. I don't remember if these were the same ones. I've had several over the years. About a half dozen I think. He was being over dramatic for my benefiet I think. Trying to scare me. But that's not really something you should tell some.
(Mon Apr 28, 2003 - 2:11:08 am)

Heruka:
whatcha going to do?
(Mon Apr 28, 2003 - 2:12:17 am)

Heruka:
Frankly, I am tired of working at home. It's ok, but I'm so very lonely. The classes that I take kinda help, but I only show up to those when there's homework to be handed in or a test. am looking forward to someday hetting a real job with real coworkers that I can talk to, makes jokes with and resent. I miss the social interaction.
(Mon Apr 28, 2003 - 3:43:10 am)

Heruka:
I feel very dislocated from the rest of the world.
(Mon Apr 28, 2003 - 3:43:31 am)

Heruka:
maybe I'm depressed. it's a possibility. thisweek is finals. I hate two tests.
(Mon Apr 28, 2003 - 3:52:00 am)

Heruka:
I'm pretty tired.
(Mon Apr 28, 2003 - 4:45:58 am)

Froupie:
i had a terrible migraine yesterday, and today it feels like theres a big hole in my head where the migraine was. i need to give up coffee.
(Mon Apr 28, 2003 - 4:54:06 am)

Froupie:

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(Mon Apr 28, 2003 - 5:43:28 am)

Heruka:
I'm going to take a nap. I have an exam later today.
(Mon Apr 28, 2003 - 6:14:33 am)

(Mon Apr 28, 2003 - 6:33:42 am)

Decoy:
Fake Decoy spotting. I certainly had no trouble sleeping. This was a weekend of invisible fence installation. 2000 feet of dog zapping gloty. That'll teach them to run into the road. So tired. Thats the problem with Sundays - you work so hard all weekend that theres no way to get enough sleep for Monday. Hell, work is the easiest thing in my life. 5 days of rest.
(Mon Apr 28, 2003 - 7:07:34 am)

Froupie:
74 lashes for a peck on the cheek seems rather harsh.
(Mon Apr 28, 2003 - 8:02:43 am)

(Mon Apr 28, 2003 - 9:21:51 am)

bela:
I went to the worst wedding Saturday night. The most insipid couple I've ever seen. I hate all the traditional, scripted ceremonial crap too. Its so tired.
(Mon Apr 28, 2003 - 9:24:46 am)

bela:
Dinner was a 4 hour affair. The food was good thats about it. AND it was at the Bronx Botanical Garden, but couldn't even enjoy that because it was cold and raining. We saw a skunk when we were leaving.
(Mon Apr 28, 2003 - 9:26:15 am)

Detlef Sping:
A skunk? how drunk were you?
(Mon Apr 28, 2003 - 9:34:51 am)

Detlef Sping:
Heruka, that rehab counselor that told you you'd probably kill yourself has probably killed himself by now.
(Mon Apr 28, 2003 - 9:37:04 am)