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Queenie:
Taking the Portland lightrail to Hillsboro is pretty scary for me because you're underground for several minutes and it seems like you're going a zillion miles an hour and the lights flicker on and off. It makes my panic button twinge a little bit. Not nearly as bad as a plane though.
(Thu Jun 14, 2001 - 4:34:12 pm)

Detlef Sping:
Being scared of nothing is scary enough.
(Thu Jun 14, 2001 - 4:34:49 pm)

bela:
Talk about horrible. I had one at my old job and I started freaking out crying. My friend Trent was like "Why don't you sit on the floor". Everyone thought I was nuts after that.
(Thu Jun 14, 2001 - 4:36:13 pm)

Detlef Sping:
Really? old job eh?
(Thu Jun 14, 2001 - 4:37:01 pm)

Queenie:
People who have never had panic attacks just do NOT understand. They assume you can just "think" your way out of it. So not true. All the statistics and logic in the world means precisely DICK when you're in the throes of a panic attack. All I want to hear is that I'm not going to die, and unless you're god himself, I won't believe you anyway.
(Thu Jun 14, 2001 - 4:37:33 pm)

bela:
Ha ha.
(Thu Jun 14, 2001 - 4:38:24 pm)

Queenie:
I'd give anything to regain that feeling of immortality that I had a kid.
(Thu Jun 14, 2001 - 4:41:18 pm)

Queenie:
The thing is... sInce that one Bad Flight, I've had a few calm and uneventful flights. But I've also had some horrible ones. The potential is there for it to go either way. The potential is also there for me to fucking fall from the sky and splatter into a million pieces too.
(Thu Jun 14, 2001 - 4:43:58 pm)

Queenie:
I'm going to go on a crash diet between now and LA time. I wonder how much weight I could drop between now and then if I really worked at it.
(Thu Jun 14, 2001 - 4:47:20 pm)

Queenie:
I was followed home by a weighing machine.
(Thu Jun 14, 2001 - 4:47:54 pm)

bela:
The old man went on that Atkins diet and he lost alot of weight, but the men do better on it. Why do you want to be thin for LA?
(Thu Jun 14, 2001 - 4:50:55 pm)

Queenie:
I tried Atkins. It was effective but took forever to see results and FAR too much deprivation of food I love. I can do that for a short time, but a diet like Atkins is for life. I want to be thin in LA because I'm a fat ass.
(Thu Jun 14, 2001 - 4:53:15 pm)

Queenie:
From anxieties.com: "How do you define a frightening experience? It is any experience that your mind decides is frightening. Realistically it might not be a problem; there may be no threat to your life or health. Yet if you feel scared, you will remember the experience as a dangerous one. "
(Thu Jun 14, 2001 - 4:53:36 pm)

Detlef Sping:
Crash diet.
(Thu Jun 14, 2001 - 4:54:16 pm)

bela:
Atkins isn't for life you silly. You're supposed to go on it to lose a bunch of weight, and then after you lose some bulk you go on a more sensible diet. The old man went on it for 3 months , lost a bunch and then never really gained it back after a year, or so he said. I don't know, he looks pretty fucking fat to me.
(Thu Jun 14, 2001 - 4:59:54 pm)

bela:
Hes handsome though. See.
(Thu Jun 14, 2001 - 5:00:26 pm)

bela:

(Thu Jun 14, 2001 - 5:03:16 pm)

Queenie:
He's lovely.
(Thu Jun 14, 2001 - 5:06:17 pm)

Queenie:
I think I'll go with the xanax and the deep breathing and the loud music on the headphones and bite the bullet and hope for the best. I wouldn't mind dying so much except Sidney would really, really miss me.
(Thu Jun 14, 2001 - 5:16:11 pm)

Myk Murphy:
i dunno... he looks like a white square with a red X inside. i'm a little underwhelmed, to be honest. hello folks.
(Thu Jun 14, 2001 - 5:16:20 pm)

Myk Murphy:
i can't say i've had a proper panic attack, but there's nothing like a few bumps to make an overnight flight over the north atlantic a little more interesting.
(Thu Jun 14, 2001 - 5:17:41 pm)

bela:
Thats funny. Hey Myk, I thought you were going to post some wedding pictures.
(Thu Jun 14, 2001 - 5:18:11 pm)

Myk Murphy:
well, it took a bit of cut n' paste, but i can now see bela's boy. dominik hasek's throat protector has nothing on tom's goatee.
(Thu Jun 14, 2001 - 5:20:35 pm)

Myk Murphy:
post them? heavens, no. i keep my identity rather close to the vest, if simply not to fuck up my nocturnal crime fighting activities. you understand, of course.
(Thu Jun 14, 2001 - 5:21:32 pm)

bela:
Yeah I guess so. I like looking at other peoples pictures. But I wouldn't want you to fuck up your nocturnal thing.
(Thu Jun 14, 2001 - 5:27:54 pm)

Myk Murphy:
perhaps i'll put those cool black bars over our faces. for that "AC/DC Dirty Deeds record cover" sort of effect.
(Thu Jun 14, 2001 - 5:38:49 pm)

D:
I've logged in at the mall, using a psuedonym. Life is tough in the sticks. How are my favorite people? Did you have a good day? Here's wgat happened ... The appliances came. I maxed out two credit cards. The A/C broke, called the HVAC guy. Work is going to hell without me - god I miss them even more, now that I think about it. Ahhhhh. Lets have a party when this is all over. I know a guy who can play polkas with bela.
(Thu Jun 14, 2001 - 7:22:38 pm)

D:
Later, folks, oompa!
(Thu Jun 14, 2001 - 7:23:25 pm)

Queenie:
Well the store was out of my usual hair color, so instead I picked the box that has Milla Jovivich on it. Hey, good enough for Milla, right? Anyway it's so dark, it looks like dried blood, like I sustained some sort of severe blunt head trauma. And it stained my face really bad all around my hairline and no amount of scrubbing helped, which sucks because I'm having dinner guests over tonight. But on the bright side, my new shoes make me a full two inches taller!
(Thu Jun 14, 2001 - 8:09:42 pm)

Heruka:
I've got pics of Myk, if you want them. No wedding pics though. Panic attack flying? Hell no. Twice I've come back to Cleveland in thunderstorms. Monday was the most recent. It's a wild ride.
(Thu Jun 14, 2001 - 10:20:43 pm)

:
xanax? better living through medication...
(Thu Jun 14, 2001 - 10:27:10 pm)

Heruka:
Of course, I've been in close to two dozen car accidents(not ALL of them my fault). Three of which totalled the ride I was driving. Never been injuried either.
(Thu Jun 14, 2001 - 10:33:55 pm)

Heruka:
You see. The problem is there's a pogues shirt I want off ebay. I don't wear them. Just collect them. So now I have to wait for the last second to put in my bid, or else I know someone else is there waiting to do the same. They've forced me to stoopp to their level..
(Thu Jun 14, 2001 - 10:44:46 pm)